इक लम्हे का PARADOX

aakhbaraun se kaati hui vo daasiyaun hi katranaen , jis har ek mae naam tumhare ke akshar aa padtae thae
khali baerang anchui si us zindgi jaisi hi ik scrapbook kahin se payi thi
uske paanaun pe un akhsharaun ko jod jod pehla indradhanush banaya tha
kyaari se kuj nanhi kalliyan toodi thi, maa ki nazar se bachkar
glue se jinhae pirokar, tumhare naam ke har akshr se sajaya tha.
vo kaalyan kuj geeli thi,ark sookhkar daag ho gaya unke baad.
vaqt ke saath saath, scrapbook ke paanaun pae bhi yaadaun ki xerox copies ki jamat badhti rahi

kai thodi shararti thi, haath paun chala, mauka paate hi peelae paanaun ki qaed se nikal li

unki jagah pe, glue ki chardivari abhi bhi, morcha pakdae hai

bikhartae paanaun vali us moti scrapbook mae , aaj bhi dhundlaa sa ik indradhanush tangaa hai
vo ik lamhae ka paradox hai, baaki tau sirf kuch goongae daag aur paraye chahrae hain.

खाली मॅन, धूँद रहा खाली सा इक और संबल.
खाली हो जहाँ ख़याल, खाली सब उलझे अरमान
खाली हो पलकों की छाओं, खली हों हाथ
खाली हो आँचल की औंट, खली ही नज़र और बाथ.
खाली मन धुंद रहा अजब सा भर्पुर खालीपन.

reel par girtae padtae se kuch saaye ubhartae hain,
kuch daudti haanfti si parchhaeyaan bhi,
jinhe na gam ki silan choo paati hai , na tees koi ghar paati hai.
har shab, mukkamal se jahan dehtae hain jinkae,
fir andhi eentaun ka
bojh uhtaye akhbaraun ke peechae se vo adib,uftaadi abraun ke jaal
dar daar ikhtiyaar kiye jaate hain..
awwal anjumanaun ki shaan vo,bahane se bhi isae be ittifaqi nahi samajte..
pasheman shayad un bade shehraun ki parwarish bhi ab nahi, saaqib
jaani hui use bhi haataun se fisalti chandi hai.

पीघलता क्वास

पीघलता कवास कुज रंग मेरी झोली मे भी भर गया;
बूंदों की सीर्हन, कुज सोते ख्वाब जगा गयी...
शौक आइना आंखों मे फीर से सजा;
जाते जाते उजाले की डोर हाथ मे थमा गयी...
मद्धम होती सांसों को रंग-ए-दज़ नए दे गयी;
थकते पांव में परिंदों की चुहल दे गयी...
कुज नयी पुरानी उल्फत फीर से तस्दीक कर गयी|

I miss you tonight..

Silence creeps into my shadow..
like tat honest smile tat dances on ur lips..
d wind, t comes as a breeze, sudden yet welcome..
but pierces me, b4 i env shake it off myslf...
jst like ur touch...
itz d sveet november again...
d dark skies,d carpet of memories, the streams it rendres...
wish u vud hv stayed...
to fill a newr leaf in colour..
to gve, it all away and b reborn...
jst mayb as d air in ur breath..
or d sweat on ur brow..
as dreams in ur eyes..
d squeal in ur mirthy slf..
d twinlke in ur sight...vn u gaze at me..
b al dat ll live in u...4ever..
jst like d pain..vn i miss u...
n i missu tonight..

Wings of Wax

Whosoever said time flies did perhapz notice tat d wings ver made of wax...d nearer u got to d suns of reality...d more dey vud melt...each time leavng drops of scarz falling behind...tilll all is gone...sddnly...without reason...bt den no one really said it vud last forever....n crash....cum bak to d crudeness of vatz held in reality..

waves and hearts...

waves come and go...
but d shore dsnt swell vith pride ..nor lamentz either...
ppl come and go..mayb even cum bak again...
yet d heart bleeds...
itz an endless turmoil...
jst wish i knew why...

salvating incrinatn..

i was set in flames..
seared in a dapper..
no ashes remained...rose no smoke either..
he grieved me to none..neither was a lone tear shed..
he set me free ..
free of his love...
free of pain..
free of a wanderlust heart..
free of a nomad soul...
free of surreal valiancies of an iridescent being..
.. diluted of his excruciating love...
..obesisance my reliever..
for i once loved thee..

'lope away..

'lope away to a fresher lease..
soaked in sins of desire..
paganous solace of noisomes of love.
pure guiltless indulgence,
in the name of that heavenly exhiliration...
till the deludes of time ..
macerates,defrocks and gelds it ..
in the undying hum of life...

Invasions around the halo..
When devils rode on like music, piercing thru my soul
What is deprived??
Did it ever toll so much??
Did it cause them to brick up?
Shackles my heart wrote..
Phantom !! the searing wisps of breath adjudged..
The earth still lies silent..
Still waits for the halo to champion over..
waits for the life to make a comeback..
Did I ever live beneath the beyond...
Did the courses nvr youndered touch me
If not, what doth I pine for??
When in bliss my soil it touched..
Do those ever echo in thy ears??
or was the deferral too inconspicuous...too impervious to reach thy heart??
Must I give up then??
Faint delusions in waters that have perhaps run too long under the bridges..
Does there loom a comeback?? yet again..?
For whom does the heart pines..If not but solace..

I shall live on॥

hidden yet forever fresh ..
like the virgin dew on blades of grass..
fragrant with blessings of morning dafts of wind..
warmed by your love, which shall seep in me..
caress my ears with the music of your molten voice..
the blue sky shall look at me with your liquid eyes..
and i shall live on..
another life...
in memories of you..

Let me love you no more..

What peeps in thy mirror?
a mere ghost of yesterday
or
a fading tomorrow
mite be even an unformed tomorrow...
let it spread its wings and fly away..
wash all scars off...
clear my heart of memories...
let me love you no more...
let me love you no less either..
use the scarlet sherd of my heart..
to hide away in some rosy darkness...
let me breath you forever
yet let the air not see u...
put me in mother earth's bosom yet again...
till im cleansd of you..
let me love you no more...
let me live you no more...

Ah.. Love!!!!

Impervious we become, as immune as they come...nthng peirces d soul nemor,tears turnd nto icy shears...stone is the heart..engravngs vill wash with time..so will the hands that wrote..
Must v live on then?y might a dusty hope rekindle fires long graven?ashes fly.. misting d eyes
vere is d road I chose..to be here..on crossroads?
but then when did I even choose to walk on regrets..?
longings they ignored...hatred they bred..souls they chained and lashed..
"dey care"...yet?Ah.. LOVE...in thy name it be..

A Request...

Give me a new name, now that I must cease to be known as yours..
Give me a deep dreamless slumber,that I must not harbour harmless fancies nemor..
Give me d poisons, for the nectar of love spurns at me..
Let me breath the last of me in thy arms..if life it not be..

May be ..it is time

A bionic heart...implanted in my impervious soul...
this continuum, has contorted me into someone,
who's impugnative...ignoramus to al...but LOVE...
or so i thought?
maybe it wasnt LOVE then....
or so say the voices...??
must I give up?
Maybe....
its time.